My Dream; My Future...

So school is out and I have graduated, not only do I now face hoards of people who know me when I “was this big” wanting to know what I am doing with my life but my mail box flooded with colleges telling me to, “Dream B!G” and, “Experience the difference” not to mention, “We Believe you belong here” . Everyone wants to know what I am doing with my life, where I will go to college, when, and what for. I can hardly blame them; I’ve asked myself that question every couple days for the past year.

I looked into colleges, attended Northeast Community College for one summer semester just to take two short classes, and weighed my options. I will admit that the idea of being independent and doing something people would approve of with my life was appealing at first. Disclaimer: I am NOT saying that anything whatsoever is wrong with that, just hear me out. :D

But, that is not what I really wanted to do with my life. Ever since I was little all I wanted to do was be a good wife and mommy. I wanted to have a man that was mine to love with all my heart. I wanted to give him children we could raise in the love and admonition of the Lord. I don’t need a college education for that but as y’all know I can’t exactly bring that about by myself. While some of y’all may disagree with me, I am quite solidly convinced that it is the man’s place to initiate the relationship, not mine.

As I looked ahead to this winter I was thinking: “Hey, I can go to college and like get a teaching degree or do Nutrition to pass the time while I wait for Prince Charming”. I just wanted to get to the point where I that my life in someone’s hands and then they could decide what we did with our lives and I would follow him.

The more I thought about it I remembered that I have already committed my life to someone, I have committed my life in its entirety to Jesus Christ. He has known since the beginning of time just exactly when every breath I take will be. He holds my future and releases it to me one day at a time.

When people ask me what I am doing with my life, I get weird looks when I tell them but I don’t even care anymore.

So to answer the infamous question concerning my future plans, I am living my future; every day one at a time, for my Hero, Savior, Lover, and Lord.